It's a very exciting time considering I can't remember the last time I didn't wake up in pain. No reprieve for extended periods of time and undergoing more tests than I care to recall without diagnosis or recommendation other than seeing more doctors and having more tests...I'd be lying if I said it wasn't testing my will.
I’ve tried many things is an attempt to relieve and manage the pain. Traditional, Eastern, Western, Physio, Cranio Sacral, Chiro, remedial massage, meditation, intoxication, rhythm nation. Nada, nothing, zilch.
I’ve recently taken up with a Holistic Practitioner who specialises in Ayurveda. At my first consultation she took my pulse and pinpointed (among other things) the exact vertebrae in which I have degeneration. Wowzas. I just walked in off the street - how does she know these things about me? Ninety minutes later I was whisked out the door with a bag full of potions and a treatment schedule. Here we go again.
Herbs, dietary changes, Pindaswed and Kati Basti treatments, acupuncture – I committed myself wholeheartedly to the cause of pain liberation. And it’s a great thing because my dedication combined with the care I am receiving from these wonderful practitioners has me on the path to improved health and well being and for that I am truly grateful.
Now back to the breakthrough...
During my third in a series of eight Kati Basti sessions, my wellness goddess starts gently poking about my lower back and declared in tones of 50 Shades of Ayurveda -
“Ooh, I've never been able to get my fingers in there before!”
“I think we've hit the magic button.”
“Something has released.”
“Hmmm, you're very flexible aren't you? Super flexible in fact.” She conceded with certainty.
“Well it's time to forget about being super flexible. It's time to get strong. “
Aaaaand I may as well have been whacked in the back of the head with a Le Creuset casserole dish.
Yes! I have been super flexible all my life - physically, emotionally, spiritually and more often than not, put the thoughts and feelings of others ahead of my own. Alright wellness goddess, I see your point and I rise to the challenge to create necessary change.
So here goes - I’m going to serve myself faithfully and first in order to have the energy and capacity to assist others. It’s not about ego. I liken it to aircraft oxygen masks. When things gets pressurised and altitude climbs beyond a safe level, I’ll fit my own mask before helping others so we all have a better chance of making it through. Then, take a deep breath and let it go. Just let it go.
Give up the bend to gain the strength. That’s my
kind of pain relief.
Loving you, loving me...TLT x
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